The HazelHearth group I joined just got together and did our first meditaion. it was written by one of the group members. The meditation was meant to help you find your focus stone. When it got to the part that you were supposed to see the color of your stone and take it. I couldn't see the color of the stone at all. When it fell off into my hand though, i got a scent instead. A flowery granite scent. After the medtation the scent was gone. It was very interesting that I couldn't see the stone because the visualization that lead up to it was very vivid.

It looks like Dec 26th is my day. That's when my hubby has to go out of town for a week. I think I will try a new way of scrying as well as the way I have been doing it in the past. To be sure. My sister told me she was making me a scrying glass for Christmas, so I'd really like to try that. I have a bottle of black water I have been using which actually works very well that I'll use as a backup if needed, because it already has an energy store. 

 I have a real inner peace when I scry. So this really excites me. :)

Doesn't that just piss you off. I'm sure some where in one of my blogs I claimed that my husband was okay with my beliefs. I just found out that was a lie. How you may ask...

I joined a Pagan book group and we read informational books to fiction books. I left Nocturnal Witchcraft by Konstantinos in a bag sitting on my laptop on the kitchen counter. I thought out of sight, out of mind. Before I even got out of bad at 7:40 am on Saturday, he burned my book. Yes that's right folks, he torched it.

His reasoning, "You're throwing it in my face." Wow, it kinda sounds like he went looking for it to me. He then continued on, "I've changed things about me that you didn't like."

I said, "You looking at porn is not the same. These are my beliefs and I'm not changing them. Did you think marrying me would change this?"

He says, "The way you feel about me looking at porn is the way I feel about you doing this."

I said,"So you feel not good enough and cheated." He said that I don't have to define the feeing because that's not it. Then he carried on to say that he doesn't want me to influence our 2 year old sons decision in beliefs and that's why I should hide every thing. Also that he doesn't (he's Methodist) have anything (not even a bible) to represent his beliefs so I shouldn't either. I told him I've had my things way before I met him and he hasn't had any thing for his beliefs since I've known him (9 years now).

I really think that if our son were to follow a Pagan path his parents would freak. They have no idea what I believe. Brief quote from his father, "Pagans have rituals all the time and sacrifice small animals and bury them."

It concluded that I need to hide what I believe better. Well he concluded that, I just didn't know what to say.

Though in the last 6 months he's become a big racist, an every politician is out to get me, gays suck an should have no rights, he's always right kind of person.

I don't know what to do. I have locked up all my stuff, but if he just happens upon it I could lose everything I have collected over the past 13 years. I feel that this is unfair.

I bought myself a nice amethyst  tri-moon goddess pendant a few months back. I was really looking for something that would give me "devil" comment from the naive. Recently I was think on maybe storing some energy in the amethyst. I was sure if I should just do one of my scryings and they direct the extra energy to the stone or if I should do a simple ritual just for the stone. I'll have to think on it, but I'm leaning toward the scrying idea, ya know, two birds with one stone.

I've seemed to contract a new sprite friend. Unfortunately I haven't been able to talk to this one yet. I feel that it must be a female and either very young or very playful. She made her first "appearance" about three weeks ago. Playing with the fire alarm. At two O'clock in the morning our fire alarm goes on then 2 seconds later, off, then 2 seconds later a quick on and off. My hubby checked everything (He's an electrician) and says everything is normal. I've had my chair scoot while sitting in it, a punch in the leg (light but there) along with other things. I sent out a mental request not to do scary things or harm anyone, or else i would have to banish it. Generally, She hasn't given me any negative vibes. It seems though that She wants my attention though. I will have to try my pendulum until I can get a Quija partner.